A Life Lost Not Taken
[dropcaps style=’2′]I’m 21 and I have lived many lives, but the one that hurts the most is being labelled as a victim. Can you imagine when doctors look up your file and see what happened to you ? And have that sorry look in there eyes which flood back so many memories?[/dropcaps]
It’s hard to think about but its not hard for me to talk about because I don’t have any hate for those who have hurt me sexually. I don’t. Because I cant comprehend that they were in the right mindset when they did what they did. How can you? That people are actually can actually do something so horrible ?
It’s hard to describe what I have lost but if you divide your whole body into parts and what makes you who you are and then a piece goes missing. Thats what it feels like you don’t fit in you don’t see or feel things like normal. Everything is different for me. I call it a blessing and a curse because I do see the good in everything and then I see the devil hiding away.
If you have lost someone for it, have someone going through it or have gone through it yourself. Remember that you will get that feeling back you will one day have everything you wished for. Because life isn’t filled with pain. Its filled with love, laughter and happiness.
Im a survivor not a victim. Remember that. It can save anyone from the hell they and I have done through.